Netflix and an update

Finally got my horror movie fix today with Sinister. It’s been a while since I’ve seen one that can scare me a little. I just saw that Safety Not Guaranteed is on Netflix. If you haven’t seen it yet, I suggest you check it out.

I continue to work on my review of Retrovirus, hopefully the community play date is tomorrow. The mp is pretty empty, besides the bots. I kill bots, they kill me, I get bored.

Had two interviews today for new jobs, both sound promising but I always suck at interviews. I either sound like a know-it-all or a wannabe know-it-all. I turn into a completely extroverted, chatty person. I hate it. Customer service jobs really do affect you in the long run. They make you realize you switch on the fake personality a little too easily. o_O

Well, I’m off to watch Eternal Sunshine and talk myself out of buying SimCity…..and the dragonborn DLC for Skyrim. And possibly persona 4 golden.

Edit: I already freed up space on my vita :)

in Distress.

Well, I finished reviewing Pid. Woo! I think I aged a few years more when I finally was able to beat the 2nd boss. It’s not so bad of a game until you attempt to beat a boss, then it sort of makes you hate life for a while. I nearly destroyed my controller. Poor controller. The review should be up on Darkstation.com pretty soon, if all looks well. 

I’m still working on the Divinity: Anthology. I played about an hour of Divine Divinity and started up on Divinity 2 with my custom character. According to my bf, I like creating whore-like characters, male or female. My Fable II character kind of proved him right. I think I had 3 or 4 husbands. Or something. Most of them died. In Fallout:NV, my character slept with Benny. Totally by accident. Then in Skyrim. I married 3 people on 3 different saves. And then in…anyway, sometimes I create questionable characters. However, my femshep was with Kaiden from the beginning, so..whatevs. 

I also started playing Saints Row the Third today after buying it during the Steam Summer Sale. I’m a little late, but had to play The Walking Dead beforehand. I was pissed off at the end of Episode 3 but I finished TWD up and earned the plat on PSN. My 1st one too! :)

Yeah, I’m wayyyyy behind on the trophy hunt. 

EDIT: I say ‘like’ way too f’n much.

Boss Fight

I’ve been excited for games before but I was literally heart-pounding excited after beating a boss a little while ago. I raised my hands in victory and collapsed in what felt like a quick rush of blood to my brain. I walked around for a bit and I still felt my heart racing.

I remembered long ago when I felt like I was going to die of happiness when I finally beat the boss in the 2nd floor in Kung Fu, escaped the train and later killed Trevelyan/Janus in Goldeneye, killed GlaDOS in Portal, sacrificing either myself or another companion in Fallout 3, etc. I haven’t had the chance to feel this rush in a long while. I’ve been playing off and on with no feeling behind it. I mean, I do love the games I currently own but the actual part of feeling like I can successfully conquer an objective, beat a level or defeat a boss had left me for a while. I played because I had the opportunity and not the love that I had felt for my games. 

Yep, I said love. These games are what take us away from our everyday lives of whatever we do and entertain our ideas of being something bigger/better/crazier/faster/bolder/stealthier for at least 15 minutes or 8 hours. I love being a gamer. 

Anyway, I suppose I have to finish up Pid soon. Probably got like another 2837362 bosses to go through. 

Stuck in mind

I’ve had a hell of a time this past month. Being sent out of town for work and dealing with chaos, even though I didn’t mind traveling. Then, the drama with my team. I’m left with not knowing if I should trust anyone anymore. I liked this job. I freaking hate drama. Now, I just feel uncomfortable. What the hell is wrong with me? I dread going in tomorrow. It’s gotta be me, right?

I just can’t seem to form a complete thought.

I’ve neglected my games yet again and I ignored the Halloween Steam Sale. Okay, so there’s a possibility that there’s definitely something wrong with me. Maybe I should buy Torchlight II. That’ll make me feel somewhat better, me thinks.

I haven’t been able to write either. No stories or reviews. However, I have been able to write HTML for my two classes. My final projects are due this week. hooray.

This question has been on repeat in my mind: what am I going to do?

Update

Warning: This post is a prime example of what happens whenever I decide to drink more than 4 cups of coffee. Also, beware of many italics.

This month has definitely been crazy. I’ve been going back and forth with my coworkers, and finally next week is my last travel week. I hope. I’ve been attempting to catch up on homework, writing, gaming and posting, and the only thing I’ve been able to complete is my homework. Half-assed projects and sites, they might be, but they’re done.

I desperately need to go back to gaming. I miss it, and since I’ve been freaking out with deadlines lately, my game pile of shame is sitting still. Yep, I’m still ashamed of it. I have another game to complete for review, too. So that will be on my priority list for this weekend. Also, so will Borderlands. Yep, I must break it. 

We’ve decided to put the house up for sale at the beginning of this next year, so we will be making huge mods to the house and painting and molding and spiffing it up. It’s not going to sell for at least 6 months. My fear is that we could never sell it, and we’re stuck here with my singing neighbor…FOREVER. Okay, a bit dramatic, but it’s possible. 

I feel really disconnected with everything and everyone. ehhh….I think I’m just whining and complaining now. 

Planning for Sept.

I finally finished portal 2 :D well the single player part, but I finished it! HA!!

….hmm well that joy was short-lived, now I have to plan out what I have to finish in September. I’m pushing both RDR and Fallout: NV out of that plan, and adding possibly Dead Island or Penumbra: Black Plague to the finishing table.

So my plan for September:

  • Finish Dead Island, or
  • Penumbra
  • Start Bioshock

That list seems easy enough, right? I thought so, until I received Sleeping Dogs from gamefly this past week. I also downloaded The Walking Dead, Ep. 1 & 2, because of PS+. I believe the guilt that I bought from this last summer Steam sale has made me not want to play them. I usually hate planning things out, because I can never completely follow through with it. My procrastination and passive-aggressiveness have to be set aside so I can get this done. I’m tired of looking at my Steam account and seeing the games I haven’t finished or even played yet. And, I don’t even want to talk about my 360 pile. I know, I know…I’m a horrible gamer. 

Oh, and I completed my review for Resident Evil: Chronicles HD. It’s posted on Darkstation: http://darkstation.com/reviews/resident-evil-the-umbrella-chronicles/

If anyone wants a 75% off Steam coupon for Portal 2, I’ve got one in my inventory so let me know. Good until 09/14.

So, tharrrrrrr is my plan.

Yep. Apparently, I went part-pirate there. 

Catching Up

Finally, I can be awake without a major pain in one eye. Hi everyone :)

Sometimes, my old blog posts scare me. I wish I could delete memories of people and situations just as easily as those posts.  

Anyway, I’ve been slowly working on my gaming backlog and added 8 more hours to Fallout:NV. I kind of want to buy Fallout 3 just to replay it, but I’ve got a lot of work to do on this pile of shame that I’ve accumulated within the past few years. I still haven’t started Bioshock, and gamefly made me start Dead Island. Yep, I blame gamefly. Why not?

I’m currently reviewing Resident Evil: The Umbrella Chronicles HD, where I keep dying and getting pretty pissed off. However, I keep continuing on.

Games to work on through this month:

  • Fallout:NV
  • Portal 2 
  • Red Dead Redemption (even though I really want to keep Mr. Marston around for a bit longer)

I’m hoping I can be at least somewhat able to play through Dead Island or the Walking Dead without feeling too guilty. Right now, the guilt is pretty annoying. I sort of nearly bought CS:GO. It was in the cart ready to go, but I couldn’t buy it. I need to finish up some games, at least one. Note to self: need to add funds to my wallet so that can bypass the guilt. 

I’ve finally decided on writing a full-length story. I’m really scared to do that, but hey I don’t mind rejection at all. (I completely hate rejection.) I’ll be fine, right? (Probably not.) I guess I’ll never know until I try. 

Aging Awkwardly.

I’m always made fun of because of my age in real life, but I have to agree with them now that I’m in pain from sitting at my computer playing Fallout or Counterstrike for hours. I used to be able to marathon through games and now I can’t even move my fingers, let alone my back. Oh god, my back. Fuck seriously, it hurts. Is this the price of staying up all night and playing plus being older? I can’t even stay up past a certain time or else I’ll be completely grumpy for the next day or so. What is wrong with me? Is this normal? 

My fingers are cramping up from contorting them around my mouse and WASD. I notice now that I have to take a break from about an hour of gameplay. Before, I’d be able to handle holding my bathroom break for many hours until my insides felt like they were going to explode. I’m afraid now that they might really explode. 

I sort of set myself up for this fail though, especially with working 8 or 9 hours in front of a computer screen. I also slouch in my uncomfortable work chair. I probably have shaved off many years off my life from being lazy at work and not wanting to walk around. Even as I type this, I’m taking some advil. I’m really not looking forward to the abuse my body is getting from gaming for long periods of time, but I can deal with it and divert the blame elsewhere. Work is killing my back. How’s that? I think that works better in my mind. 

The price of my back is so worth Skyrim and Fallout. Yep, I’m delusional but happy. And that happiness is not just from the vicodin. 

**EDIT: My editor sucks lol I need to control my typos.

SP2

Videos of SuperPower 2 gameplay, normal and aggressive. 

Russia.

Turkey.

ME3 

I just finished up ME3. Wow, I’m really sad that it’s over, although I’m sleep deprived. But who needs sleep or food? Psh. Overall, the combat system was consistent and flowed with the story line. You could customize it to either have extreme opposition or narrative, where you’re able to kick ass without trying but without the xp you may need to level up. 

I did hate the movement on the ground and periodically found my shep stuck behind a pillar right near the enemy. Some of the missions were hard to locate at times. The map would just advise where the person was, but would not have an arrow or anything guiding you over to them. So, I was stuck walking around Meridian Place Market looking for Liara. I nearly pulled a Heavy Rain and wanted to start yelling for her. With the mission log, you couldn’t focus on one of the missions like you would normally do in a rpg. You couldn’t select it to distinguish it on your galaxy map. The map was marked for each mission but might have been a bit friendlier to get that subtle difference in what was selected. I think a rpg quest log would have sufficed better rather than having to sift through all of the damn side missions to find the one I was nearest to. 

I managed to mess up a few of the parts by having one of my old crew members commit suicide due to one of my decisions. I thought I had lost another friend but I was so happy to see him get out of that situation. Other former friends/crew members that were lost allowed for more motivation to keep fighting. I thought they did well with each of those plot progressions. 

I may be in the minority on this but I liked the ending. It did have a lot of loose ends that weren’t covered, but with the ending that I chose, it really didn’t matter. I felt that the ending was inevitable and even though it may not have ended perfectly, it finished up the Shepard series for me. I’m sad to see her go, though. It’s tough to build someone throughout a series and have it end in such an abrupt manner, but was there any other choice to keep her going? I might have had a different perspective if I had gotten another ending, but I guess I won’t know that until I play through it again next week or so.

So will the landing of a particular space vehicle on an unknown area be the launch of a new Mass Effect series? Maybe an entire civilization built by the survivors of the crash with several dramatic plot devices attached? And what do we expect from the DLCs? To pay $10 for additional missions, run-ins and more time with Kaidan :D Sorry, side tracked. 

Great, this makes me want to watch Battlestar Galactica. Aw, Starbuck :( now that was a bad ending. I’m a BSG geek, sorry.